Cynthia Beardslee

Nobody's Little Girl Anymore Cynthia Beardslee

Nobody's Little Girl Anymore is a memoir centered on a life-altering event of loss and letting go, healing, and becoming thankful for everything in one's life. This book details the journey of watching a close loved-one wither away, remembering all he did and gave, and learning how to move on with that void in my life.




My dad was everything to me. Hero, protector, teacher, disciplinarian, father, papa, jokester, and friend. We shared a very special bond, but it wasn't until his terminal diagnosis that I realized he was 'bigger than life' to me, and that he molded my entire being into someone who understood so much about what's really important. He always led by example: How to appreciate the simple things in life, how to take nothing for granted, how to die with grace and dignity. He did all of this with a bit of sarcasm and brutal honesty. As I sat and watched this giant of a man fade away before my very eyes, in a very short amount of time, I was able to capture my every thought and memory through journaling. I was able to take each day and digest it as best as I could. I took the time to reflect and see with fresh eyes all the things that my father had instilled in me from my earliest memory to the very end. He imparted such profound, yet simple, observations and wisdom until he could no longer speak. That's who my dad was. And as I mourn and will continue to do so, my life moves on without him. I sadly come to realize I am nobody's little girl anymore.