Ryan Capitol

Bigger Than Me: an Untold Story of Sex and Love Addiction Ryan Capitol

In his memoir, Bigger Than Me, Ryan Capitol shares the compelling story of his addiction to love and sex and how his compulsions led him into a world of pornography and abuse and, eventually, on a path to healing.

Capitol narrates a horrifying and often graphic journey through childhood sexual abuse that began with his older brother and continued on for ten years through a variety of sexual predators who were unfortunately also family members. As he details the human side of sexual abuse, he illustrates how sex became his only way to show love and affection. With an honest and self-disclosing style, he chronicles how at age eight, he made his first sexual overture toward a little girl and how, at age eleven, he boasted about making it to first base with at least four girls in his class-all while battling internal demons that unleashed him into a downward spiral from which he would not emerge for many more years.

For anyone who has ever wondered why men and women sexually molest children or rape someone in the middle of the night, Bigger Than Me tells the gripping-and sometimes shocking-story of how it all starts.